…..continuing on with more music & lyrics, because patience has been on my mind of late – as well as being present (in the now, not over thinking, not living in the future or in the past) and this track came on.
This track was on a Spotify playlist of upbeat songs, I love the boppy melody but I love the meaningful lyrics too.
I certainly don’t need love to ease my mind right now – I very much want to ease my mind on my own, but these particular lyrics very much spoke to me as I go on my very first ‘pre-date’ coffee next week. Gosh, saying that makes my heart skip a beat.
I am very fond of this person (ok I have a HUGE crush), but I am conscious of being present without over thinking (we both acknowledge over thinking in life in general – not in relation to ‘us’. Acknowledgment of potential for an ‘us’ only happened in the last few days). So, this ‘non-date’ coffee is to check in on the energy we both acknowledge. If anything progresses it will be nice and slow as there are quite a few obstacles to a traditional dating process – one being we live quite far apart. Anyway, there goes me lacking presence again!
My mama said, “you can’t hurry love
No, you’ll just have to wait”
She said, “love don’t come easy
But it’s a game of give and take”
You can’t hurry love
No, you’ll just have to wait
Just trust in a good time
No matter how long it takes
A tribute to darling Ava.
This post is actually a draft from over 12 months ago. Wow, my how that time has flown!
I thought I would post this despite the time that has passed, as I am keen to get back to my posting and I think it’s still an applicable playlist – for both Ava and I in our present situations. I can’t believe it has been almost a year since I separated from Husband.
I do love a good ‘mixed-tape’ (yes, I am of an old enough vintage to have owned a cassette tape!) and have often written about music & lyrics that speak to me.
Below are some of my favourite break-up tracks (in no particular order). Definitely some tracks that say “Ava” to me…..my dear friend, you are most certainly irreplaceable.
I also do believe that, in the words of Halsey’s Bieber cover, there have been men in your life who should go fuck themselves…..for all the times they’ve rained on your parade……..
Sing it with me, girl, “cos if you like the way you look that much, oh baby you should go and fuck yourself“.
Enjoy, my friends 🎶🎤🎧
- Lovefool – The Cardigans
- It Must Have Been Love – Roxette
- Love Yourself – Halsey (Bieber cover)
- When Did Your Heart Go Missing – Rooney
- We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together – Taylor Swift
- Please Bleed – Ben Harper
- Don’t Dream It’s Over – Crowded House
- Love Is A Battlefield – Pat Benatar
- Saddest Summer – The Drums
- Irreplaceable – Beyonce
- We Belong Together – Mariah Carey
- Please Mr Postman – The Marvelettes
- I Don’t Fuck With You – Big Sean
- Heart’s A Mess – Gotye
- Three Little Birds – Bob Marley
- Fuck It (I Don’t Want You Back) – Eamon
- Elastic Heart – Sia
- Love The Way You Lie – Eminem & Rihanna – but I love this version by Skylar Grey
- Bleeding Love – Leona Lewis
- Say It Ain’t So – Weezer
Cocoons, masks and skins are shedding….slowly but surely.
Letting go of the past. Being present to what is.
Gratitude for the lessons. For life. For love. For loss.
I am grateful for my many blessings – strength, courage, will. I am grateful for all of the friends I have made. And I am grateful to be me.
I am where I need to be.
Words could be written but I’d prefer to close this chapter with music & lyrics.
A conversation with a workmate who has been observing my ‘resting sad face’ or ‘resting sad eyes’ recently as he passes my desk. A special friend to have at work who knows of my Magenta tales and I enjoy having a giggle with.
Workmate: I was going to say – you have the resting facial expression of someone who knows they’ll be tying up a stripper within the next 48 hours.
Magenta: Bahahahaha. You just wanted to say that.
Workmate: No, legit. You had this monalisaesque smug knowing look on your face.
…..stay tuned for the minxy tale to come 😈
So it is Easter. A quarter through the year.
Over six months separated from Husband.
Two months since news from TheMaster rendered me devastated and confused.
A few bouts of illness on my part. As well as dealing with other personal family matters.
Many minxy adventures scattered in between.
The continuing effects of all of these things have made me beyond exhausted. I haven’t been sleeping well and despite getting back on track at the start of the year, I haven’t been eating well.
And I have been doing too much in general.
So I have decided to have a break. I quit my job. And in the very near future I will be leaving on a jet plane. To park my butt on the beach, sand between my toes without a care in the world.
I’m not sure how much I’ll be around to get updates finished prior to then but I will be most definitely catching up on things once I take pause.
And I cannot wait!
A dear friend sent me these words today after I told her of receiving a text message from TheMaster simply stating “Hope you are doing well”. Sigh. Le sigh. I mean, srsly? WTAF.
On Valentine’s day no less. I wonder what Nikki would think of such a text?
After the full moon lunar eclipse I decided, in the end, that I don’t need to speak to him – but we have communicated a little since my last update.
I have many a post to publish (many a minxy adventure has gotten in the way of posting I’m afraid!) but just wanted to pop by to post these words……for anyone who needs to hear them, especially on Valentine’s Day. Not that I am much of a V-Day gal at all.
Happy V-Day, lovers. A reminder from your friendly neighbourhood mystic minx, YOU are nobody’s option.
And neither am I.