Touchy Master

A conversation with TheMaster from last year when I started this blog.

Magenta: TheMaster is live on M&M…..

Master:  Oh really
FYI I’m not stressed about my presence on M&M, rather flattered!

Magenta: Lol, you should be.  You are the envy of many, it would seem

Master: Do tell?

Magenta: Tell about what

Master: Who is envious
Love getting under that boy’s skin {referring to TheLinguist}
I’m being a shit now

Magenta: Well I already said TheExec but I’ve barred him
The Little Prick & Hipster too but they’re gone

Master:  TheExec, he was a nob

Magenta: TheLinguist wants your fave status for sure

Master: Love your nicknames

Magenta: Haha thanks

Master: TheLinguist needs to produce! Lol

Magenta: If I’m well enough I’ll be seeing him tomorrow night

Master: Really?  Where?  My Magenta not well?

Magenta: Been sick since Friday.  He arrives tomorrow sometime

Master: WOW, and your going to be ‘sick’
Stirring you

Magenta: He’s here till Fri

Master: Oh

Magenta: No more stirring?
He’s also said that he can typically get to most places on this side of the country within a couple of hours, no questions asked.

Master: Well isn’t he a freaking champion

Magenta: Lol, snarky master

Master: Maybe

Magenta: He has little chance of moving to fave status
Despite great odds on the surface

Master: Well, you never know….with his ability to be somewhere in hours with no questions asked
Test the big talker one day
I reckon he is full of it

Magenta:  Haha I shall

Magenta: Lol TheLinguist’s response to me mentioning you getting under his skin

“Haha! He seems like a dude – besides chances of him getting under my skin while I’m busy gettin inside of you is zero”

Master: Just remind him I’m the Master while he plays with himself
Guy is a desperado
With minimal substance

Magenta:  😂😂😂😂
Touchy, Master?
Desperado, why? he’s definitely not – picked up live last time he was here.
You will always be the master x

Master: What did pinhead TheLinguist mean – seems like a dude?

Magenta: That you’re cool, everyone thinks you are.  C’mon as if I’d paint you as anything but.  That you’d get along.

Master: I’ll retract my ‘pin-head’ comment previously aimed at him.


To tell or not to tell…..?

For some reason, for the most part, I don’t feel guilty about my current indiscretions.  I don’t know why, I can’t quite explain it…..

One friend who knows of my Magenta life, queried me about whether I would ever tell husband – well, more of a comment that she didn’t think she would be able to keep such a secret from a partner.

I know this has been debated by many before me in similar situations and it’s not an easy thing to ponder.

Will I ever come clean about Magenta? Should I?  I guess only I can answer this but it is something I have been pondering.

Magenta’s Men

I thought I’d do a recap on the current men in my life – whether their presence is sporadic or regular, and their current status from my perspective.

*Edited to add who would play these guys in a movie… much as I like to be as anonymous as possible, I thought I may as well give an idea of how lucky I am –  although how much of a likeness these guys are to the actors I name could be debated. I’d say who would play Magenta, but that would really be telling! 😜


TheMaster is obviously well known throughout my blog as a prominent character.  At this point in time, I think I’m resigned to the fact that whilst he has been a prominent character in Magenta’s world, he won’t be a prominent character in mine.  TheMaster has a lot going on in his life (who doesn’t?) and whilst he has commented several times (including as recently as last week) that he enjoys spending time with me just chilling, I don’t know what he wants or sees for us.  I can only assume that he wants an uncomplicated casual sporadic friendship (I don’t even know if he considers us friends) whenever he is in town – although I realise making assumptions can be dangerous.  I’d cast Gabriel Macht (or his most famous character, Harvey Specter), as TheMaster. 



MrAnonymous  TheBull**

I was originally going to call this guy something else, however he does state quite often how private he is and as we have gotten to know each other more (albeit virtually and not in person), I thought to ask him if he minded being written about. He was a bit iffy, so I thought I’d call him MrAnonymous in the meantime.  We met a couple of times at the end of the same week that TheMaster was here and MrAnonymous is definitely an interesting guy. He is unfortunately also from out of town, but is going to be moving to my town in the future.  He has been involved with playmates in the past whose husbands knew and approved.  I’d like to be able to explore this with my husband – but there’s that pesky communication issue to overcome first.  MrAnonymous was a lot colder in person than I was expecting, he’s much warmer on chat and video chat, but I get that he was perhaps nervous, maybe a little shy in person.  When I queried him on this later, he admitted to playing cool but he was also under a bit of personal stress and had been experiencing some muscular pain at the time which he didn’t let on how much it was affecting him.   Prior to meeting, we chatted quite a lot and he was a bit intense initially but it was a cute – so to experience him a lot cooler in person was unexpected.  I really enjoyed what we spoke about and the things he was interested to explore with me – he’d had quite a lot of experience in the players world from a young age.  Whilst we didn’t get to play much during our meet ups, the time we did play was quite exceptional in the end – brief, but unlike any other climax I’ve experienced.  Now that we have been chatting regularly, I truly cannot wait until we play again. MrAnonymous would be played by Kit Harrington, best known as Jon Snow from GoT. **Edited to add that MrAnonymous can be officially confirmed as TheBull. More about him to follow soon!


I haven’t seen TheForeigner in quite sometime although we chat briefly every so often, maybe once a month. It’s a bit random really but, like TheLinguist, I feel quite comfortable and friendly with TheForeigner – definitely no inkling of liking him too much. He is a nice guy, great kisser, speaks my language enough although the sex isn’t quite there yet.  I’m not quite sure if we will play again as our schedules are clashing a lot this year thus far but he seems to like keeping me on the radar. TheForeigner would be played by a very young Viggo Mortensen.


TheLinguist is more sporadic than TheForeigner, he speaks my language very well – we both love words, but as I posted recently there’s definitely no feelings of more there at all despite a lot of comfortable warmth and getting along well.  We haven’t chatted since I last saw him – which doesn’t bother me in the slightest. TheLinguist would be played by a young Bradley Cooper.


TheKid is someone I haven’t written about yet but I chat to sporadically.  We met very briefly once last year just to say hi.  He’s very cute in person and his ad that I contacted him from had one of the best body photos I’ve seen to date – not his actual body (well he had an impressive back and glutes) but the artistic nature of the photo. We haven’t played and I’m not sure we will but he’s an interesting guy to chat to occasionally. Given I have only met TheKid once, and very briefly, it’s hard to say who would play him.  I think I’d have to say a younger Ryan Phillipe.


Rules for Love {article}

I absolutely love this list that I came across recently (love love love Elephant Journal articles)!

#55 certainly has me thinking…..I’ve been meaning to do a post on husband and will do so soon.  He is an amazing man, with so many wonderful qualities and I’m sure that he does love me but I guess I need to get over the fear and ask for what I want and expect.

1. When it arrives, cherish it.

2. Whatever you accept, you will get.

3. Understand that love is a mirror—it will show us who we are if we allow it to.

4. Only we can make ourselves happy, it is not the other person’s responsibility.

5. Don’t say words with the intent to hurt.

6. Accept and forgive easily.

7. Don’t be scared to disagree, it is healthy.

8. Never be too busy for each other.

9. Do not punish.

10. Accept honest criticism, it is good for us.

11. Admit when you are wrong, quickly.

12. Support each other when the going gets tough.

13. Live in the moment—be present.

14. Leave the past where it belongs.

15. Leave drama out of it.

16. Don’t try to control.

17. Allow a small amount of jealousy.

18. Don’t use comparisons.

19. Celebrate differences.

20. Communicate openly and honestly.

21. Listen very carefully.

22. Don’t judge.

23. Don’t manipulate to get results.

24. Learn and grow.

25. Don’t try to change each other.

26. Don’t condemn each other’s family and friends.

27. Lines, flaws and imperfections are beautiful.

28. Trust your instincts, but don’t be paranoid.

29. Don’t compromise your morals and values and don’t expect them to either.

30. Instead of power, aim for balance.

31. Space is needed to breathe and to grow.

32. Accept that you are both unique—never compare.

33. Have fun, laugh and play—a lot.

34. Be each other’s best friend.

35. Don’t play mind games.

36. Do not carelessly throw away love.

37. Don’t waste energy with negative thoughts.

38. Compliment often.

39. Discover each other.

40. Be attentive and understand what’s not said.

41. Do at least one romantic and thoughtful thing every day.

42. Take picnics and sleep under the stars.

43. Don’t just speak about it, show love.

44. Walk together, cook together, bathe together, read together.

45. Do not be afraid, love requires surrender.

46. Be loyal and faithful.

47. Trust.

48. Be grateful.

49. Fluidity is good, accept change.

50. Don’t sleep on a fight.

51. Don’t cling to it, know when to let go.

52. Discover what turns you both on and explore it.

53. Make love, but also f*ck (regularly).

54. Give and receive without measure.

55. Never gamble with what you can’t afford to lose

One of those days

It’s cold and dreary.

Great fucking weather.

After enjoying some nice time with hubby’s best mate and his wife recently, I was feeling really good about working on things with hubby.

But today – today, I just want to fuck. I want to devour and be devoured. I want skin. I want cock.



Why him?

I recently caught up with TheLinguist, after not having seen him since we first met and had several playdates during his last visit to my hometown.

It was really lovely to see him and he echoed the same sentiments. TheLinguist and I seem to have a really relaxed and easy friendship, if I can call it that already (as this was only his 2nd trip to my hometown, although we saw each other 4 times during his first visit). We definitely speak the same language I feel, which helps a lot in being able to be easygoing and understanding of each other.

Unfortunately I was out of action during TheLinguist’s visit, but it was nice to enjoy some skin and delicious kisses along with some blowjob practice….something I never get to do enough, that I thoroughly enjoy.

TheLinguist and I enjoyed relaxed, comfortable banter as well as the warmth and affection we seem to be able to naturally share, somehow without the lurk of added emotion, which gives cause for further reflection on my feelings for TheMaster.

I don’t know why I seem to feel genuine warmth, playfulness and desire from TheLinguist without feeling like there’s anything more than just that, unlike with TheMaster. It doesn’t feel cold or transactional at all with TheLinguist. Just like two friends who get along and like to fuck. There’s certainly enough attraction, desire and communication for great sex – but we have other great conversations too.

Something I’ve been meaning to post about for sometime, is my recent introduction to the philosophies of Alain de Botton.  In particular, his views on love and relationships in the modern era.  This amazing man was introduced to me by my wonderful therapist and listening to some of his talks, along with reading, has definitely opened up many new perspectives for me.  I do want to post separately about my own breakthroughs and thoughts since discovering Alain de Botton, but for now I reference him as I wonder why I feel the way I do about TheMaster….?  Am I simply letting myself be carried away by romantic fantasies which happen to feature him the most because he was my first real playmate?

Why TheMaster and not TheLinguist? Why not TheBull*?

*background to follow soon


He looks at me like I’m a goddess but also a friend.  He tells me that I’m smart, stunning, hot, sexy, amazing. That he likes it when I tell him things in my interpretation, rather than copy links or paste words from an article.

I know he’s not perfect, and neither am I, but I wish we could find out whether we were perfect for each other. But I don’t think that will happen.

I wonder yet again whether I need to walk away. To let go. Perhaps I do but I don’t want to.

Apart from the looks, touches, words…I like the growth I have experienced – growth like nothing before.  I want more of that.

What if…..?

I wish I knew what ‘what ifs’ he had.